I don't even know when it started
I don't care
all I know is that it's there.
he's not the typical guy I would look at,
but really, I shouldn't be looking at guys anyway.
he's at least 10 years older than me but I don't even notice...
he's smart, and funny, and kind, and everything you would say about someone you like.
he's all of those things.
he doesn't hold back around me. he says what he thinks and I like that.
he does so many little things for me that make my day easier.
he pays attention to me.
he makes sure to touch me in some way every time he walks by.
I hold my breath around him sometimes.
I don't really know why, I just do.
he loves music and it makes me want to dance with him.

I could list a hundred great things about this man but it wouldn't matter.
we're co-workers.
we're both married.
he has CHILDREN
WTF is wrong with me?
it's not like I would act on any of this but it hurts.
it hurts a lot.
I have not felt like this in a long time.
and it's not like I went out looking for it.
I don't want to be so attracted to him.
I don't want to feel this way.
he makes my heart stop
and my eyes close.
and when I open them, I see my husband.
and I don't care...

it will all soon fade away... i hope.

×Hates
closed minds,
George W. Bush,
& chinese food.

×Loves
hugs,
writing,
& mt. dew.